My partner took me out to meet some friends yesterday and I ended up drinking. I fell over and we argued. I dont remember hardly anything. He said I hit him in the arm. I have never hit anyone in my life and I cant believe I did it. I dont even know why I drank possibly because I thought I could stop I dont know. I’m so full of regret I am at the lowest of the low. I cant lost him and I want to do this for my kids. I’ve been doing really well and I dont know why I messed it up. I honestly cant stop crying and I dont know how to carry on. How do I escape all of this? How do I become me again? Too many years i have wasted and i ruined my marriage. I am ruining everyone’s lives. Help me please as this is not me. Help